Merry Christmas to all. I hope the season was not to cold and that all had a great time opening presents.
My kids got 3 each, and some donated clothes. I got nothing...But not complaining, Just watching my kids faces as they realized they won the lottery. After 6 years in China they never knew that you can get toys and stuff on Christmas day.
So now my kids have finally succumbed to the American "me first" mentality and have now started to ask "what about me? I want "more"....Heartless it seems when that is all anyone thinks of when it comes to Christmas. It is becoming a crime just to say the words I grew up with "Merry Christmas" people loose their jobs from saying it, being sued just for saying it. All because it is christian......

So now "happy holidays" has replaced the "merry Christmas". And instead of watching "A Christmas Carol" by Charles Dickens. we are stuck with holiday episodes of "Sex in the city" "Will and Grace" And sports. And shit all on MTV for those lucky enough to afford cable, never mind the Satellite programing.
So now that Christmas has come to symbolise the very thing I dread would happen to it like with Valentines day and the 4Th of July and Thanksgiving day.
A secular world of money. A day to reflect on all the kids you beat just to take the toy home for your kids. The commercialization of Christmas. Another day to part with your money so the greedy corporations can take your money from you. And that's why they make all those toy advertisements during the holidays rather than any other day of the year. Because you know the prices will be jacked up. And kids won't remember the one toy they said they wanted last February, because it has been almost a whole year since. And they have to have what so and so has and it's advertised on TV.

So we need to boycott this and stop it. After all the very toy you are buying only cost a few dollars to make in China, but you will pay tens of dollars even a hundred to get it. Who wins this Christmas? not you! You are broke, the toy company that paid a 10 year old child in China to make this toy for a one dollar a day wage in China who does not even know what Christmas is or even have clothes or a blanket to keep warm while making your Kidd's toys this year. But don't worry about them right? It's all about you and your kid getting the best and to heck with everyone else. You are all a bunch of selfish, unintelligible, ingrates.
And that is why I hate the Saleability of Christmas. And you can not put GOD into the equation if it is all about money and toys.

So while you eat a full satisfiying meal, have your 2 kids open up all 20 presents you bought them and sleep warm in a bed. I wish you have nightmares of the starving children chained inside a factory, hungry and making the toys your kids will get this year and know that while a toy cost you $30 or more that it only cost the toy company $100 to buy 1,000 of that same toy and you are bilked into paying $30. Just like the other 999 people who paid $30 for the same toy so the company makes a profit of $30,000 all on your dime.

So now it is time to get ready for the next holiday, New Years day, A day to get drunk and try to forget about those nightmares so you can live in the dream world of selfishness again without guilt. Then comes Valentines day, a day to pay $100 on a dozen roses that only cost $14.99 any other day of the year.
But it's alright, we all like fantasies right? That;s why your husband is out sleeping around with other women, because him loving you is your fantasy, loving someone else is his. And the fantasy for your kids is this: Everything is alright at home we have lots of money and mom and dad are happy.
So keep the dream alive, we have a nother generation of mindless sheep to bring into this world.

A funny coversation between me and my sister.

plumblossom_inc: Poor jr, he is so sick he even passed up pizza
MySister: now thats just wrong
plumblossom_inc: he just gave my 17 cents from his pocket and told me to go get him more

medicine
MySister: thats cute
plumblossom_inc: He loves pizza too, it is shocking. I think the world is going to end
MySister: most definately
plumblossom_inc: I just gave him medicine and guess what he said?
plumblossom_inc: He said "mom, I'm hungry!"
plumblossom_inc: I told him we just finished off the pizza so he lay down crying
plumblossom_inc: HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!
MySister: thats mean

plumblossom_inc: hahahahahHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAH!!!!!
MySister: oh so mean
plumblossom_inc: I am still laughing myself to tears

MySister: man your cruel


plumblossom_inc: Well I did ask him a few minutes before if he wanted pizza and he said no

he was not hungry, then 5 minutes later he says he is hungry? what was I supposede to do?
MySister: i know
plumblossom_inc: But looking on his face as he lay down and I don't know wither he is crying

from not getting pizza or crying from the pain and misery of being sick
MySister: i have no idea
plumblossom_inc: Yes I am sadistic and mean and cruel, that's why I make a better parent

than their father, is is just a sadomasicist. But I enjoy morbid oral abuse, he enjoyed the

physical kind. I enjoy a great hearty laugh, he enjoyed yelling and harrassing (belittleing

the poor babes)
MySister: yeah and thats not right
plumblossom_inc: only in your mind. Everyone needs to be morbid, or else the smile machine

could never make you smile. We must have something to laugh about, or the smile machine will

never work.
MySister: hey, wheres my pizza?
MySister: that was from dad
plumblossom_inc: So in all fairness to laugh at oneself is like laughing at another I ate

the mother F" pizza already! Sheez did you not scroll up and read about my nefarious

laughter at Jr not getting any?
MySister: he said it was good
plumblossom_inc: What was good?
MySister: the pizza
MySister:
plumblossom_inc: The story? the laughter? or the e pizza?
plumblossom_inc: Did you smell it? dad.....it smelled like shit....that was some good shit

there man, too bad you only got an e pizza
MySister: he is laughing
plumblossom_inc: hahaha
MySister: his sinuses are clogged up so he didnt smell it
plumblossom_inc: Why are you sick?
MySister: i was jk
plumblossom_inc: You have to realise I am just like my dad!
MySister: i didnt know what elso to do and that look funny
plumblossom_inc: Watching someone barf is not funny, watching someone barf in public and be

stared at is funny
MySister: yeah it is
plumblossom_inc: I am glad we agree on something sis.
plumblossom_inc: Of course we are all
MySister: i knew that
plumblossom_inc: Oh Yeah? how did you know? I was the one who told yoou.......

Living in LA part 2

After a few days of being in the Hollywood Inn express south, I went to the GAIN office for a new voucher for the hotel, but I did not have all the receipts, so they would not put the money on my card. Instead they gave me a voucher check and told me to use their choice of motels. Out of the 5 motels one stood out because it said they had a kitchen, so I chose that one. Well after moving all my things down to that motel, I found they did not have kitchens and they did not have refrigerators or internet, and most of the rooms only had one bed, full sized, but still not big enough for me and the kids. So I left our things there and took the metro rapid 754 back up to the Alexandria House shelter and told them my situation. I gave the kids something to eat and went upstairs to check my email. As I was checking my email, one of the ladies there, named Liz came upstairs to tell me they found a place for us to go.
Well we were taken down there without getting our things. And let me tell you 5 days without a shower and 4 kids who naturally happen to be cousins with the dirt they wear is not a pretty sight.
Our first night, I paid the lady (her name is Arzina) there $450 in cash to stay the whole month, and that left me with $158 in cash for the whole month. And I had about $800 in food stamps, so that I was not worried about, it was just keeping the kids clean that was.

Wednesday I had cooked dinner for all the residents in the house and just when I thought I could eat, everyone started cleaning out the two refrigerators in the kitchen and putting dirty dishes from them in the sink and the spoiled food on the table, then I was told it was my turn to clean the kitchen. OK I thought, I’m cool with that, but then after I started to sweep the floor the same girl came up to me and said “oh yeah I forgot to mention to you that you also have to clean the living room too”. So I spent 5 hours starting at 10:00 Pm cleaning both bathrooms and the kitchen and living room. There were dirty dishes on the counter and in the sink piled high. I finally went to bed at 3:00 AM, dirty and tired.
Thursday morning, I made breakfast for my kids and had all the other parents’ kids who did not go to school come up to me saying they were hungry. I told them all to go talk to their parents and the parents told me to give their kids something to eat. Hey I am not these kids’ parents, why should I feed them with my kids’ food? Only to be told after I fed them that I should clean the dishes I used for the meal. I was not happy.

Well she finally took me on Thursday night to get my things from the motel and check out. After getting everything out we headed back to the house and I put my things into my room. After settling all the kids into bed and I sat down to read a newspaper to look for a job, but miss Arzina came upstairs and asked why everything was dirty, every one had an excuse not to clean one was saying she was too sick, Yeah right she sits on her ass everyday. I told Miss Arzina I did it and more the other night and it was not my turn, after she found out everyone had me clean up all that, she was mad. She said that everyone waited for me to get here to clean out the refrigerators and then made me throw their stuff away because they were lazy.

We were supposed to have a house meeting and rewrite the chores list, but it pretty much seems to me that I am stuck cleaning everything while everyone is either eating or talking. I am told to clean this and clean that, but I have to go out to watch my kids, while the other parents sit upstairs and watch TV and talk all while their kids are outside. I leave one spoon in the sink and I have to wash everything in the sink, but they will go a whole day or more without washing dishes. Oh never mind my roommate coming home with her baby and getting into a fight with me for having my kids sleep on her bed. This place has no funding what so ever and all these rooms have two families inside them and they are barely 10ft by 15ft.The beds are twin sized. There are two beds in my room, and two adults and 5 kids must share these two small twin sized beds. There are around 10 kids here and 7 Adults (myself included) in a really bad Compton neighborhood. All my kids are half Chinese, but these other kids are all black (OK racially and otherwise, they don’t wear shoes to play outside)

Finally we get to Friday, I gave the kids a shower and clean clothes. Gave them a bowl of cereal and sent them to play outside so I could clean the room and get my roommate off my back, I needed to wash laundry, but by Friday my remaining money was gone so I tried to ask around, well after a while my roommate left for work with her baby and she did not come home till around 10:00 Pm. Meanwhile I realize I am missing my EBT card, so I am home alone with everyone’s kids, all the adults are in their rooms and ignoring my requests to help watch the kids so I can look for it.
After Miss Arzina came back home I told her what happened and we called the EBT hotline and it looks like I lost $175 dollars in food stamps. I only had $400 or something. But to be left with around $200 before I canceled my card all because the other Adults in this house are a bunch of stuck up snobs living on welfare and refusing to even find work and at the same time preventing me from looking for work because I am too busy watching their kids and cleaning up after them.

I really do hope these people loose their kids, but if social workers come here they will take my kids as well (death by association) I really do want to get a job and get the fuck away from these lazy drama mamas. All they do is fight all day about who has to clean what, or who’s kids are doing what or someone stole my…….crap. Enough already, I just want to run away with my kids and say to hell with them.

Saturday a day of relaxation in China because all kids are in school, but here in America kids are home from school, a nightmare waiting to happen. My roommate and the other residents get into a screaming match while all the kids are running up and down the stairs screaming and going in and out of the house. I tried to stay out of it because it was one of those someone stole this crap and someone left this here. I just washed my dishes and tried to make lunch for my kids, and then I went to my room and got online to search for a job and update my blog.

I hate these people, they do not care when their kids get hurt and one woman screams at her baby and spanks it (around a year old) because the baby cries from all the noise, they only give their kids juice instead of water and feed the kids cereal, chips, candy and cookies, all the while eating nothing but pizza rolls and every single frozen TV dinner from what ever store they got them from.






I at least feed my kids according to the schedule and I feed them actual food. These other kids are going to get sick because they are not eating right because of their parents who cant even be bothered to watch them and make sure a child molester doesn’t take them.
I rarely eat junk, but I am still fat. (OK not fat fat, but it looks like it)
Would it surprise you to know that most of these kids here will eat vegetables when I feed them? It is sad that their parents won’t feed them right. I got one boy to eat a salad made from spring mix and olives and French dressing. I used onions on my salad; I totally forgot to buy tomatoes.


Well, this is the end of my update, because Sunday just started and there is not much happening at this time of day. Catch you later.

Living in LA part 1.

So on Thursday, November 20Th, at 8:00 Am my kids and I arrived at LAX from GuangZhou, China on a repatriation loan due to my husbands twisted mentality and abuse. I just could not take it anymore. I spent the last 2 years trying to get out of China and away from him. His drinking and yelling and whoring around was making me go crazy.
Anyways, we got to the airport and everything was ok. As we picked up our luggage and put it onto a cart and started to leave a woman called my name over and we went to see her. Her name was Michelle, she had a friend with her named Mary,and she told me that her friend was going to be my social worker. So they took me out to catch a cab to go to the airport and try to settle down.
As we got to the airport I was given $1,000 in cash and a 2 inch thick stack of papers and told to get some rest first and then call all the numbers on the papers.

Well I guess they forgot the fact that I am from NY originally and not from LA and the fact that I have never had to take the bus or train for that matter. I stayed in the hotel for a week and then got kicked out.
Now why would I say that? you ask. Well on Monday my check out day I told the front desk I was going to get money to pay for another week. They said "Ok we will let your stuff stay in the room".
Well I spent all day from 8:00 Am till 3:00 Pm At the GAIN offices trying to get emergency homeless assistance. I only had the money given to me, but I know it wont last. Well I got the hotel vouchers and went back to the hotel and they told me I had to pack up and go. I asked them why when they told me I could stay earlier in the morning. The told me it was their policy.
Well then I went a different route and decided to ask for another room. They told me they had no more rooms left because they were booked for the rest of the week. I sat there confused and I called Mary my social worker and asked her what I could do. And then in walked a woman and she went up to the desk, I started to laugh to myself (mean, I know) She asked if they had any rooms open and they asked her if she wanted a smoking or non-smoking. She said non and then signed the slip the desk clerk handed to her then gave them money and her ID and they gave her back her ID and a room key. I was floored. I could not believe it, she did not have a reservation and they gave her a room not even 10 minutes after telling me they were booked. I have 4 kids and no place to go.
Well tell you what, if you ever go to LA do not stay at the Travelodge Inn on the corners of 5547 West Century Blvd and Aviation. They are a bunch of cruel bastards. I had money and hotel vouchers.

I had Mary call me back and I had to carry all my stuff down the road to the Motel6. Have you ever seen a woman with 4 kids carrying all that on her own about a mile down the street? I am a lot stronger than I look. I was carrying over 100 LBs and trying to keep control of 4 kids aged 8,7,5, and 4. Not an easy task.
Well we checked in and I got everything back on track, every one showered and into bed by 11 Pm.

The next day we went to the GAIN office and sat there again and they told me to fill out a bunch of papers and wait till my name was called. I was there at 8:00Am and they did not call my name till 3:00Pm. They gave me some cash assistance and an EBT card and sent me on my way for the holidays. I hope yours was good. I had to buy new shoes for my older two sons and food. I found a small mexican place that took the EBT card and we had some great food. Now being homless and poor, I started to eat eggs and Cheese again. Because if you go to a soup kitchen and put your nose up at all the meat and eggs and pasta they serve, you will most certainly go hungry.
I can not believe there are no places for vegetarians or vegans to go when faced with this situation. It's impossible to hold to your beliefs when you are hungry, so please don't harp on me. I am trying the best I can.
I learned there was an express trolly that goes to El Sugundo (did I spell that right?) Well they have good shopping and a whole foods store and "The VeggieGrill" I swear they have awsome food. OK!OK!OK! I splurged $38 there for dinner. And bought a pair of shoes for my daughter. Then we went home again. (My kids loved going there and ask me to go again)

Well the day came for us to leave Motel6 and I called the Alexandria House, A shelter for women and children. The put us into a Small motel, And Aparently they have really crappy wireless internet, I could not connect, they wanted me to use their internet room which was a desktop computer on top of a box in a cleaning closet. Then they yelled at me for taking my kids with me. Yeah! right! I really want my kids to be taken away from me because you want to be a bunch of cheap assholes. So here is another recommendation. DO NOT stay at the Hollywood Inn Express South At 141 N Alverado street. Especially if you use wireless, and have kids and no one to watch them.

I found out there are three things in this world you can not be.
1. A woman
2. Poor
3. Be a single parent
And to be all three is like a curse. There is no hope to beat that. People will always look down on a poor single woman with kids. And it will not matter if you have 1 kid or 4 kids from the same father. You are treated like a disease.