Living in LA part 3

So on Christmas Eve I stopped smoking and went on the patch.
I had gone 3 days without a cigarette and I forgot to put on a patch and got cranky and had an argument with the lady at the shelter so I took the kids and left and went up to the Alexandria house shelter on Alexandria ave. We stayed in a hotel with some vouchers until January 2nd and then went back down to Watts where we were staying in a shelter and she moved us down the street into a garage, only to find out there is no electricity or heat and the garage is not insulated from the cold.
We sleep on a twin sized mattress, an adult and 4 kids sleeping on a twin sized mattress is not fun.
I found out that my cash aid was terminated because someone in Yuba County is receiving benefits in my name and using my social security number. So I had to get that fixed and after I spoke to Mr. Tovar he got me set up again and I paid for my January stay at the shelter and got the kids immunizations updated and they started school on January 12th.
I attended a meeting at the school for the dual language program and pissed off all the Hispanics there because my kids speak Chinese and they want a program for their kids and I spoke out and said that even if my kids speak Chinese they will never progress because they do not have a dual language program for them, and when they go home it is English they speak because it was their father who spoke Chinese to them. The Hispanic kids can go home and speak Spanish to their parents, but who speaks Chinese to my kids? So I started to take my kids to Chinese restaurants to speak Chinese to the workers there and have become friends with them, the one guy who owns a restraint has given my medicine for the kids and I and has also given my kids food and cookies to eat.

Pretty much since then every thing has calmed down and we have not really done anything other than to go to church and eat and sleep. But the last few weeks of rain has left all of us with the flu, fever and headaches. And Now that the rain has stopped I have to go to see my worker at the DPSS office to get a receipt of my cash aid assistance for the WIC office and to ask him to help me get back into high school so I can get my diploma and then I can get a job.
The biggest thing is waiting. At least I got a cell phone. I know I have to pay 25 cents a minute but it is better than paying 50 cents for a payphone.
I may end up filing taxes, but at the same time I am afraid that if I do that my earnings may be with held because of the repatriation loan. Or I may get a call or letter telling me to pay it back now. The biggest problem with this is because we did not live here for one year and I have not worked in America since 2002 how would this play into the tax refund?

Being a single mother of 4 kids is hard and I have always had my husband do this and I never had to worry this much before. It is easier to just stay in an abusive relationship instead of having this headache everyday. But I am also proving to him that he was wrong. I can live without him and I can do things on my own. He used to laugh at me and say that I had never lived as an adult alone and that I would crack from the pressure, that I would never be able to do anything without him. But guess what? You can shove it. I am doing it without you and I have no help, and for this I am a hard worker. I walk everywhere I need to go and I find places without any help, and I get there on my own. And I am taking care of 4 kids on my own and they are happy.

So for those women who are in an abusive relationship, you owe it to yourself and your kids to get out of there. Because a man who treats you like this is only doing it out of insecurity and selfishness. And once you get away from him and start living on your own you will se that he was wrong and you can do it. Yes it is very hard to do, but if I can do it then so can you. If you catch any slack from other women who say they did all this with out government help or help from their families they are lying to you. You can not get an apartment without money and you can not get a job without a place to live. So you get out of that toxic relationship and you get on welfare and find a place to live and once you get a job you can get off the welfare. It is a stepping stone on a pond in the middle of the river, but if you get caught in the undertow everything falls apart. I say to you ladies that you do not need a man because sex is only a short term pleasure, but a long term pleasure is, knowing your kids will grow up not being the next generation of abusers. And that saves the future from breading the hate and abuse that the men who hurt you were doing. We are equals, and it is time men realized we were not a pair of tits and a piece of ass for them to have fun with. We should be respected because we can tolerate higher amounts of pain than they can and we can work and still do our jobs at home, but they always complain about how tired they are after work to justify sleeping with other women and using us as slaves. Marriage is just a legal slavery and when women realize we do not need a man to treat us like this and that we are worth more than a play toy, men will respect us and treat us right. You man would never talk to his mother like he talks to you, right? Your man would never hit his mother like he hits you, right?
So it is time to put men where they belong in their proper place, just like their mother’s had them. We can do it without them just be strong and hold your head up and walk out the door with the kids and go somewhere safe.

Love is a lie

Well after thinking heavily on Valentines Day and the past years events on Love and the whole Proposition 8 thing I came to this conclusion…….again…..That we all need to love and let love.
I mean, what would the point of Valentines Day be if it were not so?
Did you notice (and also from reports I have read) that the whole prop 8 thing was pushed by Mormons? Yes my dears Mormons have a long history of Polygamy, or being married to more than one wife. Unfortunately the women are only allowed one husband. How sexist is that?
So after reading the bible to gain some spiritual advice on my own failed marriage and trying to find out why my husband behaves like a Mormon and broke his wedding vows to me and making my heart break into tiny little shards of cold deathly hate for the Holiday of love.
I learned that GOD hates Adultery (When a married man or woman sleeps with another man or woman who they are not married to) I started to think….
Why is everyone against same sex marriage when heterosexual couples can not even remember who they are married to in the first place?
What was the point for you to get married if you can not stay true to that one person? Doesn’t it kind of cheapen the “I love you” words you are supposed to mean with all your heart?
If you cheat either behind your spouses back or with their blessing it is still adultery.
And therefore in my opinion are wasting a marriage on Polygamy instead of Monogamy.
Spreading diseases that you can not detect or know of until you had slept with two or three people, wondering which one gave you herpes or syphilis when you could have had it since you were a teenager and never knew of it.
Now think of the guilt of spreading these diseases without knowing it, but simultaneously blaming your partner.
How do you define love?
Come on guys….someone…If anyone has read this then please give me your thoughts.
Are you faithful or do you cheat? Does He/she know, or is it a secret?
Do you know if your Love cheats on you and if so how do you feel about it?

And as a bonus…..Let’s talk about Celebrities who are natural Polygamists.
Like c.o.u.g.h c.o.u.g.h. Paris Hilton c.o.u.g.h c.o.u.g.h and others.

So instead of going after Same sex couples, Heterosexual couples need to get their adulterous lives cleaned up and learn what being committed and faithful means and practice love because love is safe sex. Because you can not go after a same sex couple thinking they are doing something wrong according to the bible when you have committed adultery.
Heresy is like a lie and it shows cowardice by pointing the blame to take away the shame.

Did you know that for every gay/ lesbian person coming out of the closet, there are 10 heterosexuals who commit adultery every day? I’d rather be lesbian, but I will settle for Bi, I get the best of both sexes during sex. <3

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