Tired and losing hope.

So I am totally tired I have been working hard to get some money to go back to America with my kids. Everyone who sent me to a website for help, I E-Mailed all, but only responces are, "We're sorry we are unable to help you." Why? I am a US citizen and so are my kids.
Screw Bush and the BS he is causing in America, Because of him my own country can't help me get out of here.
And even if we could get back home there are no jobs because all the jobs are in China, the place I am trying to get out of. I mean I love it here, I love being an English teacher, but I need to be around people who understand me, understand what I am going through. And to be with the last of my family before they all die. I just lost my mother in Febuary.
I got a mother's day tattoo in memory of her. She never even had the chance to see any of her grand children because of my husband.
I need help, but what do I do? Where can I go? How can I get me and my kids out of here and back home?