MY baby girl in Taiwan

She is in a park. (one year old)
Bath time. (younger than a year)
Her first birthday.
Bathtime. (6 months old)
Siobhan now! (almost two years old)
This song is written by someone else it is not mine, but I think of my daughter Siobhan everytime my oldest daughter sings it.
NOTE<<<( I guess guitar chords are written before the lyrics)>>>NOTE
Lao Shu Ai Da Mi================ F Cwo ting jian ni de sheng yinF Bbyou zhong te bie de gan jueF Dm Gm Crang wo bu duan xiang bu gan zai wang ji niF Cwo ji de you yi ge ren Dm Am yong yuan liu zai wo xin zhong Bb C Fna pa zhi neng gou zhe yang de xiang ni Am Dmru guo zhen de you yi tian Bb C Fai qing li xiang hui shi xian Am Dm Gm Bb C wo hui jia bei nu li hao hao dui ni yong yuan bu gai bian Am Dm bu guan lu you duo me yuan Bb C F yi ding hui rang ta shi xian Am Dm Gm Cwo hui qin qin zai ni er bian dui ni shuo dui ni shuo Reff: F Dm F Am wo ai ni ai zhe ni jiu xiang lao shu ai da mi Bb Ambu guan you duo shao feng yu Gm C wo dou hui yi ran pei zhe ni F Dm F Am wo xiang ni xiang zhe ni bu guan you duo me de ku Bb Amzhi yao neng rang ni kai xin Gm C Fwo shen me dou yuan yi zhe yang ai ni (repeat all ..w/ 1/2 tone up.... then repeat w/ reff 1/2 tone up again! >.<)

An Update for MAY

So I know it has been a while since my last update, but I have been very busy.
First I have been studying for my GED test. For those who do not know what this is, it’s like passing Senior high school (right before college).
I have been focusing on my mathematics the most as that was always a weak class subject for me. But I have a great tutor. I just have to work on algebra, and some of that higher stuff like calculus.
But it seems I have Social studies and Science down packed, considering it has been 15 years since I last opened a book on them. On the short practice test I got 100% on social studies (24 questions) and 98% on Science. (I only missed 2 out of 24 questions) But that’s because I never took chemistry.
My reading is just as good, but unfortunately, my writing lacks a lot. Mostly, I have problems with the various formats that can be used with writing essays. As far as reading, I am an avid reader, and I read a lot, mostly online because it takes less space to keep an online library or E-book than it is to have a full fledged library. Not everyone has space for it in their homes.
So advanced mathematics and science would be my goals to improve upon and also my writing abilities.
Of course I don’t see anything wrong with the way I write, do you? Just let me know I have to fix something ok?

Second I also went to the social security office and applied for my social security card, I should get it in two weeks. And I also asked about getting a social security card for my baby Siobhan who is still in Taiwan. I was told all I need is her Birth abroad report and her immunization records and then fill an application for her. Then I can get WIC and food stamps and cash aid for her.
My soon to be EX husband, told me his girlfriend hates my daughter because my daughter is more beautiful than hers. (Our daughters have the unfortunate fate of sharing the same father; the soon to be EX husband, that she took from me. Good luck to her and good riddance to him. )
So he plans to send her to me in July; not that I believe he would keep his promise to me, because he never has in the past. But that is good news to me. It means I won’t have to fight for an international custody issue in court.

I once was so depressed I had made a slip when I was talking to the kids; I said “I am so sorry I gave you the wrong father, because he certainly did not deserve me, much less you kids.”
I realize now that while it was true he did not deserve them or me, God put us together for a reason, but now that reason has been complete and the better parent prevail.
Let’s take a look at what I mean:


Fathers abilities Mothers abilities

1. No job, but not looking 1. No job, but looking
2. Lives off of other people 2.Tries to make ends meet by recycling
3. Drinks, does drugs 3. Do not drink or do drugs
4. Sleeps with many women a night 4. Has not gotten laid since 2006
5. Yells at kids 5. Rarely yells
6. Hit kids and me 6. Never hit kids or others
7. Bought kids things for their love 7. Bought kids things out of love
8. Gave them too much candy 8. Gives candy out once a week
9. Took them to the doctor when he had time 9. Takes them to the doctor no matter what
10. Asks for money to get medicine 10. Ok I have Medi-CAL for my kids
11. Only visited his kids once a month- 11. Lives with them everyday
Even if he lived next door to them
12. Lies, steals, and cheats 12. Honest, helps others, and caring

I may be on government assistance until I get a job, but my husband is a parasite living off of other people and never looking for a job. Even when I was with him he lived off my money, but never lived with us; he was always living with other women and never took care of us. So I was basically an independent woman even before I left him. I just don’t have the abuse and humiliation anymore.
I had always thought we would be the kind of couple that grew old together, but his culture and his upbringing made him feel entitled to being with other women as he saw fit. I was used to give him kids and the other women were used for other things. And the humiliation from his verbal abuse in public and his cheating hurt me so much I thought about suicide.
But a special band came into my life and the lyrics of their songs wrote my whole life and the music from their songs showed my true feelings about what was going on. And it gave me a voice to speak out for myself and say “Hey! I am not going to live this way, I don’t deserve it, and I am not going to take it anymore. It stops now!” I owe much to AFI, they gave me so much and I wish one day to return the favor.

And now with my life going slowly into the healing process I will one day forget about the pain, I am getting back on my feet and moving forward, and AFI’s music will be there every step of the way.

I have also been going to church at the Angelus temple in Los Angeles and getting into a Christian rock band called Press Play, they are really good. I like their music. I also live with them at the dream center, I get to talk to them almost every day and my kids talk to them after service has finished. Sandra wants to play piano just as much as she did in China and now Jr wants to learn guitar. I did get him one for his birthday, but I think I am not qualified to teach him how to play, he might need lessons.
So I am going to get him a book and try to teach myself as much as possible first, then I can teach him what I learned.
So I have a very busy schedule and along with a lack of internet connection, my updates will be slow to get along to you.
God bless you!

How Love feels

Well after thinking heavily on Valentines Day and the past years events on Love and the whole Proposition 8 thing I came to this conclusion…….again…..That we all need to love and let love.
I mean, what would the point of Valentines Day be if it were not so?
Did you notice (and also from reports I have read) that the whole prop 8 thing was pushed by Mormons? Yes my dears Mormons have a long history of Polygamy, or being married to more than one wife. Unfortunately the women are only allowed one husband. How sexist is that?
So after reading the bible to gain some spiritual advice on my own failed marriage and trying to find out why my husband behaves like a Mormon and broke his wedding vows to me and making my heart break into tiny little shards of cold deathly hate for the Holiday of love.
I learned that GOD hates Adultery (When a married man or woman sleeps with another man or woman who they are not married to) I started to think….
Why is everyone against same sex marriage when heterosexual couples can not even remember who they are married to in the first place?
What was the point for you to get married if you can not stay true to that one person? Doesn’t it kind of cheapen the “I love you” words you are supposed to mean with all your heart?
If you cheat either behind your spouses back or with their blessing it is still adultery.
And therefore in my opinion are wasting a marriage on Polygamy instead of Monogamy.
Spreading diseases that you can not detect or know of until you had slept with two or three people, wondering which one gave you herpes or syphilis when you could have had it since you were a teenager and never knew of it.
Now think of the guilt of spreading these diseases without knowing it, but simultaneously blaming your partner.
How do you define love?
Come on guys….someone…If anyone has read this then please give me your thoughts.
Are you faithful or do you cheat? Does He/she know, or is it a secret?
Do you know if your Love cheats on you and if so how do you feel about it?

And as a bonus…..Let’s talk about Celebrities who are natural Polygamists.
Like c.o.u.g.h c.o.u.g.h. Paris Hilton c.o.u.g.h c.o.u.g.h and others.

So instead of going after Same sex couples, Heterosexual couples need to get their adulterous lives cleaned up and learn what being committed and faithful means and practice love because love is safe sex. Because you can not go after a same sex couple thinking they are doing something wrong according to the bible when you have committed adultery.
Heresy is like a lie and it shows cowardice by pointing the blame to take away the shame.

Did you know that for every gay/ lesbian person coming out of the closet, there are 10 heterosexuals who commit adultery every day? I’d rather be lesbian, but I will settle for Bi, I get the best of both sexes during sex. <3

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